Goin' to the chapel and...

Prologue: Did you miss me?

I know, I know....I've been really horrible about updating you all on the latest and greatest here at the den. So, please accept my sincerest apologies for the blog hiatus that I've subjected all of you to. It's just very hard to take the time to fully write an entry when we have so much going on. Believe me when I say that I've been in desperate need of some "blog therapy" for almost ALL of April and actually most of May, too! I have a bunch of posts that I started to write on my iPhone as things happened throughout the month so I'll be posting them soon. John's Aunt recently reminded me of how disappointing it has been to click on my blog and see sh*t I wrote exactly month ago. So, you can all thank her for lighting a fire under my ass 'cause I'm on top of it now. Anyway, onto the update. Enjoy!

...we're gonna get maaarried!

In case you missed it on Facebook (that is if we're FB friends and you stopped being a "secret reader"), John and I decided that we're going to tie the knot! We've been engaged for nearly six years so I thought this day would never come..especially since I keep getting preggers. Nevertheless, all three of my sisters are getting married in the next two years so it was now or never.

(I've been told that Filipino superstition dictates that it's bad luck for siblings to get married in the same year.)

John and I had a serious conversation on 4/27 about the direction our lives were headed. During that discussion, we formulated a new "life plan" now that we knew for sure that I wouldn't be entering "real school" for a while. (Maybe when Niki's condition stabilizes a little more in a few years.) First on our "to do" list is to get a new "home sweet home". (We sold our condo and because I *thought* was going to be in school full time for two years. Ha! What can I say? Shit happens.) However, as our nonchalant discussion progressed into actually working out the logistics of our plan, we decided that we should probably get married to give our newly regrouped life a jump start.

So, we're going to the chapel and we're gonna get married on 12.11.10.

These are scary times my friends. Not because I have cold feet, but because we only have six months to put this wedding together and our savings account is ill prepared to handle the cost of our dream wedding. Again engaged for 6 years = a whole lot of dreaming. :) The pressure is on even more because my uterus is starting to ache for an occupant and I'm entering another year of fertility. (I've gotten preggers every two years since we've been together.)

I've recently discovered that wedding planning is stressful! I repeat, wedding planning is stressful!!!!!!

It's only been approximately three weeks since we decided to start planning and I already want to call the whole thing off. Not the wedding part, just the celebration. In reality, I just care about fulfilling the Sacrament so I can stop being such a "sinner". I haven't been married in the eyes of God, don't ya know? ;-) Despite my own inner turmoil with wedding planning, I've also discovered that everyone and their Mama has all sorts of ideas about how THEY THINK we should get married.

If we want have a Halloween-themed wedding (complete with Michael Meyers) in December, no one can say a damn thing about it. Unless I insist on c-walking down the aisle, then of course the Church would have to the right to refuse service. Other than that, it does not help to hear how we shouldn't do our wedding. I just get discouraged. And self-conscious of what people will say if I don't "do good". But people are entitled to their own opinion right?

Someone is always going to have something to say.

At the same time, I realize that at the end of the day all that matters is how WE want to get married. (Not in a Bridezilla sort of way of course.) Aside from stressing about finding the right venue and caterer (we're trying to do everything different and symbolic) that would be available on such short notice, another challenge for me has been selecting the wedding party and what they will wear. I know it's the holiday season so I'm trying to be super considerate about selecting budget-friendly outfits. I'm most certainly NOT going to have people spend hundreds of dollars on an outfit that they will rent/only wear once. Although, I admittedly think the more expensive stuff is waaay prettier so I can understand why most brides might not put into consideration how much their wedding party will spend by participating in her wedding.

Or maybe I'm the outlier for thinking about other people's pockets when factoring in my decisions? Hell, I don't know. Lol! I'm going to stop writing now before I get even more stressed out.

Thanks for "listening" to me vent.